本当の大人 (Hontou no Otona)

Way back when I first posted about NaCreSoMo on Facebook, Shana (realstarterv) suggested making a song in Japanese. As Japanese is still my most comfortable non-native language, I couldn’t say no; today I took up the challenge and made a song called 「本当の大人」, which means “True Adult”.

It’s funny because the song is hardly taking advantage of the Japanese; it’s essentially the same sort of song I’d write in English for one of these creativity month things. Basically it’s about feeling a bit out of place, feeling like you’re not quite as good as those around you…that you’re just pretending to be an adult. I’m less than two years out of university, so perhaps pretending to be an adult is par for the course. The other half of this is another planned blog post about Imposter Syndrome, which will talk about how Imposter Syndrome is important and how I still get feelings of Imposter Syndrome despite all the things I will be humblebragging about.

If you’re on a slow internet connection, you might want to download the audio instead.

The video is particularly rough today, with fewer takes and a fingerplucking guitar part…a technique I’m not really comfortable with yet. (I should probably go for real guitar lessons at some point, so that I get a valid progression of new abilities rather than flailing around and defaulting back to four five-chord songs in G.) It’s a bit later than usual…maybe I’ll re-record this at some point.

おはようございます
朝日が来て
ちょっと遅そうだ
仕方ないね

できないと思ったっけ
安全じゃなかったっけ
本当の大人だっけ…かもしれない

(Chorus)
そんな気持ち
私も感じて
そんな「嘘つき」
本当になるSOMEDAY

同僚がもっと上手
年々なって来て
それでもがんばっても
もうノービにして

いつも変装をすれば
扮装の下にかくせば
あやつっている人形だってば

(Chorus)

みなさんもそうなんで住んで
確信があんまりない
人生、映画じゃないで、
最善を尽したい

(Chorus x2)

Good morning
The dawn has come
A little late
It can’t be helped

Seems like you’re thinking you can’t do it
Seems like you don’t have peace
Seems like you’re a real adult…probably

(Chorus)
That feeling
I feel it too
That “liar”
Becomes real some day

Coworkers get more skilled
Every year till now
In spite of that, even though you try
You’re still acting like a newbie

If you always put on a disguise
If you hide under makeup
If you’re a puppet being controlled

(Chorus)

Why does everyone live like this?
True belief is rare
Lives are not movies
We want to do our best

(Chorus x2)

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