"Holding Back"

I still felt terrible at the end of the week, and I knew it was going to be a bad one. Everything still reminded me of him, whether it had anything to do with him or not—the curtains he came with me to buy, the books he gave me for my birthday, the rack that had so often held his stylish shoes. It was the end of the week and I felt like I couldn’t take the effort of bearing up his presence, so I decided to go out.

It would be better to be around people, I decided, as…

Determination: Epilogue

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[Content warning: car accident]

Determination (Part 10 of 11)

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Nine months later…

All the houses in the neighborhood had put up Christmas lights, ranging from simple blinking bulbs to elaborate glowing tableaus of elves and reindeer. The condos were a bit more subdued, but the front office had hung wreaths on the outer fences, and many of the residents put up bright decorations in their windows.

Matthew and Pat had bought a small tree and set it up cheerfully in the living room with a silver…

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