Losing Sleep

Lately I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Lying and wondering what you’d think of me
You know I know you might take it pretty hard
But we’re past counting blows now
We’ve only come so far

This light has bought us borrowed time
Spool my heart out on a line
But if this is the end that’s fine
I’ll pay the price and get what’s mine

Oh, but are we now old?
Lies, if the truth be told
Cause all that glitters is not gold
And sometimes you just have to fold

I, I, I feel something so right doing the wrong thing
I, I, I feel something so wrong now that I’ve been reflecting

I could lie, I could lie, I could lie
But I will tell the truth and it makes me want to cry.

Fans of the band OneRepublic (or, um, people listening to pop music in any context in the last five years) will likely recognize this as a variation of “Counting Stars”. Despite that, this is intended to be read, not sung; the arrangement of the original doesn’t fit with the mood here. I do know it’s not particularly coherent; it’s mostly a stream-of-consciousness that’s at times deliberately ambiguous. Hey, it’s Day 30 of NaCreSoMo (even if it’s not post #30).

Part of NaCreSoMo 2016.